The Hypothetical Ball and Chain Saga

What began as a journal of sorts into the mind of someone planning a wedding from afar - the highs, the lows, the in-betweens - that ended in a wedding uniquely ours, to the continuing saga of married life and still being an amazon.

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Finally! A chance to write...

It's been awhile since my last post - who knew that I would get soooo busy. I've really nothing to talk about pero really happy that I have a chance to sit and write for a little bit.

Even before I always found myself trying to be busy, keep busy, keep myself occupied because I found that when I was idle, it would be very dangerous. Hahaha I'd get into the oddest problems, craziest troubles and just be destructive. That was in college...these days, I find that I'm not TRYING to be busy, as much as I am busy with work, our start up business, the kids, my husband, social obligations, family obligations...everytime I find some sort of free time, I find that I can actually find something within 5 seconds that I need to do asap.

A great example, today we got home and I needed to prepare for a phone meeting. We ordered dinner, relaxed for 5 minutes in front of the couch with Brian before I went upstairs to take off my shoes and jewelry, and that's when I saw the laundry the housekeeper had left nicely folded on our bed. I put that away, used the new hangers I bought from Ikea over the weekend and then I looked at the time it was 8pm! Time for my call. By the time I was done, it was time to put kids to bed, and put dinner stuff away. Haaaay...I have a 7:30 am meeting tomorrow naman and I'm still working. Who knew that the boredom allergy I had would be completely banished at this point in my life - now, I'm looking for a little bit of breathing room that doesn't have me going from one responsibility to another...

I miss my solo life sometimes...the alone times, the me times, the what-will-I-do-today times...but then I look at the sleeping faces of my son and daughter...the idle and starry look my husband has as he watches his show, and I can't imagine life without them. I guess we can't have everything...but anticipate to appreciate what we do have.

But sometimes...